Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Darkness

Today was a bad day.

I'm staring at the pills I managed to find - my husband tried to hide them, bless him, but he's not real thorough.

My coworkers have forgotten me, I have no close friends, and my family is stressful beyond compare. The new meds make me stoned all the time.

I spent the majority of my day in bed. I cried. I slept. I stared at the ceiling fan.

I can't imagine living like this for much longer. Is this all there is to look forward to?

On the other hand, I did shower and go out to vote - I'm not so far gone that I can't do my part to help the Democrats take the Senate. Maybe there is hope left for me.

Still. A bad day.

3 comments:

Ninotchka said...

I'm sorry, luv. Hope today is better!

Jane said...

It is, a bit. Plus, I did my part, and it worked! That's something to smile about, at least!

Julie said...

Not ONLY did you help take back the Senate, but Rumsfeld is resigning too!

I choose to believe you had something to do with that. :)

You're doing the right thing, I think, by taking it a day at a time. Eventually it will make a difference. Hang in there.